I HAD MY FIRST TREATMENT

Good Evening my friends. I mistakenly posted this post on Susan's Hearts and Flowers. I went back to delete the post because I want that blog to be positive. I just want to thank every one for their support and prayers. You all mean so much to me that words can not express. I know that all your prayers and positive thoughts for me made the difference in my prognosis. You are greatly loved. I had my first radiation treatment today. I have such a vivid imagination, that I totally scare myself to death. I kept thinking a radiation beam would shoot me and it would be painful or burn me really bad. Of course these fears were irrational. The staff was very competent in letting me know that I would not feel anything. They were right. It was a piece of cake. The machine did all the work,I just had to lay there. I have had so many people look at my breast through this process. I told the technician today if one more person ask to see my breast " I was charging admission" Going through this journey has caused me to face my own mortality. The prognosis for me is very very good. The risk is low for the cancer to come back. The doctors have stated this to me. However, I have to admit, I still have my fears. Scriptures state that perfect love cast out fear. I pray for that perfect love and ask forgiveness because I am not there yet. I realized as I traveled this journey that I am not so much afraid of dying but of giving up this wonderful life I am living. The thought of not existing is very overwhelming to me. I know that God is in control. I know that he has walked every step of this journey with me, I have asked forgiveness for lack of faith and having this fear. You are all greatly loved Susan

Update on visit with Radiation clinic

Good Afternoon! This will be a brief update on my visit to the radiation clinic yesterday. It went well. For some reason in my mind I thought the process was going to be so much more complicated my first visit. I had a vision that I would be standing up, and they were going to mold my body into this thing and would be very uncomfortable. I do not know how I thought that is what she told me. The set up was very easy and I was very comfortable. I had to undress from the top down to my waist. I had to lie on a scanner my bottom was kind of lifted. My two arms were pulled back over my head and placed into these cuff like things. She scanned my body to set up the lasers so she could mark where the radiation would be directed. Then she marked my chest area with big black X's. Well the x's were on little round bandaid like things. She told me I could shower daily as usual but not to scrub the marks. The marks have to stay visible or she would have to "mold me again". I go for my first treatment December 26th. I will keep you updated on what happens there. God Bless the families of the Connecticut school. Just when we think we have it so bad, a tragedy happens to someone else and we see how truly blessed we are. May Gods light shine upon you and give you peace.

GOOD NEWS!!

HELLO MY FRIENDS. I KNOW WITH THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT ALL AROUND US, THE LAST THING WE WANT TO THINK ABOUT IS CANCER. THIS UPDATE IS GOOD NEWS. I MET WITH MY ONCOLOGIST TODAY TO FIND OUT THE RESULTS OF THE GENETIC TESTING. DR. GOLDBERG STATED THE TEST CAME BACK AS ME BEING A LOW RISK FOR THE CANCER TO COME BACK. THEREFORE, I DO NOT HAVE TO HAVE CHEMOTHERAPY. ALL I HAVE TO DO IS THE RADIATION TREATMENTS. I WILL TAKE THAT ANY DAY OF THE WEEK. DR. GOLDBERG STATED THE TYPE OF CANCER I HAVE IS CAUSED BY ESTROGEN. I ASK HOW I COULD HAVE ANY ESTROGEN LEFT SINCE I HAD A COMPLETE HYSTERECTOMY YEARS AGO. HE SAID THAT ESTROGEN CAN BE PRODUCED IN OTHER PARTS OF THE BODY,LIKE THE ADRENAL GLANDS. I TOTALLY DID NOT KNOW THIS. I HAVE TO MEET WITH HIM EVERY THREE MONTHS FOR CHECK UPS. HE IS GOING TO START ME ON SOME HORMONES. EARLY TOMORROW MORNING I GO TO DR. BENNET'S OFFICE TO BE MEASURED AND MOLDED TO START MY RADIATION TREATMENTS. I JUST WANT ALL OF THIS DONE SO I CAN THINK ABOUT LIVING AGAIN VS THE ALTERNATIVE. I WILL CONTINUE TO KEEP THIS BLOG UPDATED ABOUT MY JOURNEY. I WILL LET EVERYONE KNOW HOW I DO WITH THE RADIATION. THE BEST CHRISTMAS PRESENT WAS WHEN DR. GOLDBERG TOLD ME MY DAUGHTER WOULD HAVE AN AVERAGE CHANCE OF GETTING BREAST CANCER. THAT'S A WHOLE LOT BETTER THAN HER BEING A HIGH RISK FROM SOMETHING HER MOTHER PASSED ON TO HER. I GIVE GOD ALL THE PRAISE FOR HAVING SOME CONTROL OVER THIS CANCER. I KNOW IT WAS BECAUSE OF THE PRAYERS OF ALL MY BLOGGING FRIENDS, AND MY COWORKERS, FAMILY AND FRIENDS. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND CONTINUE TO PRAY IF I MAY ASK THAT OF YOU. YOU ALL ARE A TRUE BLESSING TO ME.