Friday, November 16, 2012


I went .to my oncologist  on Thursday. He is having some blood work sent for testing to see if I am a risk for the cancer returning.  If  it is determined I am a high to moderate risk for the cancer to return I will have to have chemotherapy. If it comes back as low risk of the cancer returning I will only have to have radiation.
I have been an emotional mess since being dx.  The nurse yesterday was getting some demographics and asking me alot of questions. She ask me the years my children were born, I could not tell her. I knew the day of their birth but could not for the sake me of me figure out the years.
The nurse and tech looked at each other like I was an awful person because I could not remember thier birth years. I tried to figure it out by their  ages, but when I saw the looks on the nurse and tech faces I was an emotional mess and could not answer anything.
 The nurse took me back to the exam room. When she closed the door I broke down in tears. The doctor came in the room and ask me what was wrong. I garbled out I don't remembeed r my children's birth years.  Needless to say he wrote me a script to treat the stress.
I am sure I overreacted or misread the nurse and the tech looking at each other. Brerut it had been and extremely stressful day at work.


  1. Praying peace and strength for you right now Susan...and remember you are not expected to always have a stiff upper is ok to cry as this helps to lift the stress as well.

  2. Don't beat yourself up over this. You are going through an emotional and scary time right now. Everyone including myself that has been through some kind of cancer, cannot hold it together all the time. Just take things a day, hour or minute whatever you can handle. It will get better as time goes on, I promise.

  3. Don't be so hard on yourself. This isn't something that anyone wants to go through. There are so many different decisions that have to be made and so many different factors that contribute to what the decision should be in the treatment of your breast cancer. When I seen my oncologist he went through all of my reports and told us if it was this then I would have to do this and so on like that. I had my surgery in March and I still have my emotional days. I think it's mostly the unknown that makes it so stressful. Once you find out what you need to do things will be better.

  4. It's understandable and even cathartic to cry. The blip in your memory is due to the stress you are under. Take the medication and don't be hard on yourself. Love you!

  5. I know this is information overload and the anticipation will make you stressed out. Take a deep breath and I'm a good listener if you need to talk, XOXO Susan

  6. Don't worry, we all get mental blanks. Plus it is especially likely that you do after being under such pressure. Just relax and laugh about not remembering. We all support you and certainly don't judge you because you cant remember the birth years.

  7. Hello Susan....You can be emotional if you want to. What you are going through is terribly stressful. Terribly.

    I can hardly believe people would leave negative comments when you are in such a vulnerable state.

    Having cancer is not funny. Those readers should just disappear, if you ask me. Don't pay the least bit of attention to them.

    Glad things are going well and that you are writing about it. That's wonderful.

    Take care, Susan. You are very brave and courageous, too. Susan

  8. With all you've been going through I can certainly understand not remembering. I'm sure they weren't judging you, but only concerned. I certainly hope the results bring good news:-)

  9. Dear Susan, You have been through so much in a short time and it is normal to feel the stress of the situation and to forget. I am sure the ladies were just looking to each other out of concern for you. Let yourself feel allowed to go through this journey in anyway you need to. If that means forgetting a few things even dates and years, well that's okay. I forget my son's age all the time, oh and my age too. LOL LOL~~ You have been so strong and shown so much courage. Continued prayers for you my friend. I hope the tests go well. Whatever they show, you are amazing. God Bless you every step of the way.
    Sending big hugs, Celestina Marie

  10. Oh my friend you are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Please know it is not important to know the year your children were born only the years you have loved them. And this, they already know.

    Be blessed and please have a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday!

  11. Hi Susan, Hope you enjoyed a nice Thanksgiving. Any test results yet? Continued prayers come your way sweet friend. Thank you for stopping by. Sounds like you had a fun outting. Have a blessed week ahead. Hugs, Celestina Marie

  12. Saying prayers for you. I'm not under all of the stress you are experiencing, and I can't remember my children's birth years! laurie

  13. I cannot remember my children's birth years and put the wrong date on the school forms this yr...
    hang in there!!
    blessings to you.

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  15. Susan, My heart goes out to you and it is understandable that you are stressed. Take care of yourself and I will keep you in my prayers. Sending big hugs your way. Sherry

  16. Susan, you have good reason to be stressed. I pray that all will go well. I will keep you in my prayers. May God wrap his arms around you and give you comfort.

  17. You are in my thoughts and prayers. This is just a time when you have so much information coming in from so many people and the stress in unbelievable. Just take it day by day and don't let anyone get you down, I pray you will have a peace and serenity in your soul.

    Prayers and blessings to you.


  18. I came by just to thank you for visiting my blog and have been reading your story........I will remember you in prayer and am hoping you are able to do an update soon. If you took time to read my post and even make a comment then I am hoping you are doing well!
    Blessings, Lorraine